012014 Balish Sami ShesSOMEKindOfSlut

 -- conciseTactician [CT] began trolling arcaneArtisan [AA] at 02:13 --

[02:14] CT: Erm, Sami, I WISHED to EXPLAIN myself for my... BEHAVIOR last night.

[02:14] AA: Huh? What do you mean?

[02:14] AA: You were mad at me for meddling in stuff I didn't really get, right?

[02:15] CT: MOST trolls would be... GREATFUL for Quadrental ASSISTANCE, in some castes.

[02:15] CT: WELL, in MOST castes.

[02:15] CT: The ONLY one that SHOULDN'T be meddeled with is the EMPRESS'S royal blood.

[02:16] AA: You guys have an Empress?

[02:16] CT: HAD.

[02:16] AA: Oh.

[02:17] AA: I guess some places, humans have emperors and empresses too.

[02:17] CT: Maenam WOULD step to the POSITION, but she SEEMS to DISLIKE the THOUGHT.

[02:17] AA: Oh, wait....that must be what Maenam meant about her feeling obligated to study!

[02:17] CT: We had ONE, a SINGLE lucky grub BLESSED with the Fushcia blood.

[02:18] AA: She said she was an HEIRESS, but I thought she just meant of like a corporation or something.

[02:19] AA: Wait, so....Maenam's a princess? A real, live princess?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:19] CT: Sami, I contacted you for a REASON.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:19] CT: And WAS.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:19] AA: Oh. I'm sorry.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:19] CT: She said she WISHES not to be ADRESSED as such.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:19] AA: That's just a lot to take in.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:19] CT: Well, OKAY then, YES, she was, but as I SAID, she gave it UP.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:21] AA: I see. I guess that's why she seemed so approachable. She seemed just like a normal girl....other than being such a hotshot fashion designer, I mean.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:22] CT: I KNOW, she seemed to be INAPPROPRIATE for the ROLE, something which has been a PROBLEM for a LONG while, on MY mind at LEAST.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:23] AA: So....you were mad at me for trying to set you up with a "NOT" PRINCESS as your moirail?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:24] CT: No, NOT that.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:24] CT: I was MAD at you for INTERFERING at ALL.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:24] AA: Well yeah I got that part.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:24] CT: Which is SOMETHING I shouldn't have been KINDER about.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:25] AA: But it seemed like you were going somewhere with this other than that when you started explaining this case stuff.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:25] AA: Caste, I mean.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:26] CT: RIGHT, right, it's only ADDING to the particularity of the SITUATION.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:27] CT: Myself in PARTICULAR, with the SITUATION with Maenam HERSELF.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:28] CT: Okay, WELL, I am UNSURE about TELLING you this, to be HONEST.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:28] CT: But you AT LEAST deserve an EXPLAINATION.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:28] AA: Huh? Why?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:28] CT: I wasn't EXACTLY nice, and my SITUATION is a little UNIQUE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:29] AA: Yeah, but I get why you weren't nice. Heck, even as angry as you were, you didn't seem half as angry as Libby.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:29] AA: I've never seen her so mad as when I first broached the subject.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:29] CT: Uh.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:30] CT: SHE thought moirails... Were CLOSER than that what they ARE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:30] AA: Yeah, but I think that's partially my fault.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:30] AA: Because I didn't understand it really well and I explained it poorly...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:30] CT: Probably.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:30] AA: ...and actually, even explaining it right, I still understand why she would be upset.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:30] AA: Because Null told Beau she though Beau needed a moirail today, and when Beau told me, I kind of...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:31] AA: ...I mean I *supported* her, but I guess I felt a little hurt.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:31] CT: Oh?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:31] AA: And it must've been way worse for Libby.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:31] CT: YES, it SEEMS to be.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:31] CT: She UNDERSTANDS it better now, though.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:31] CT: I don't KNOW about Beau, thought.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:31] CT: A NON-TROLL pale relationship is.... STRANGE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:31] AA: I'm getting used to the idea.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:32] CT: Seeing how the LAST one turned OUT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:33] CT: HONESTLY, if you love her, let her GO, and trust her.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] AA: Yeah. That's what I'm doing.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] CT: Then don't WORRY.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] CT: Beau's a SMART human.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] AA: I'll try.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] AA: Yeah. The smartest. <3

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] CT: She'll KNOW to talk to you if it's IMPORTANT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] CT: Gross.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] CT: Keep your FLIRTATIONS to yourself.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:34] AA: I wasn't flirting!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:35] AA: I was talking about my girlfriend!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:35] CT: COMPLETE flushed flirtations. Toward HER, I mean.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:35] AA: Oh.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:35] AA: Okay, then yeah, I guess that's fair.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:35] CT: BESIDES.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:35] CT: Libby is the SMARTEST, hands down.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:36] AA: Well she's not human.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:36] AA: But let's not get into a "Who's got the best girlfriend" fight.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:36] CT: Right.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:36] CT: Erm.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:37] AA: But yeah, I guess this whole thing was me saying "It's okay, I get why you were angry."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:37] CT: No, you REALLY don't.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:38] AA: I....don't?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:38] CT: You get why Libby WAS, it SEEMS.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:38] CT: My anger is DIFFERENT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:38] AA: Well no, but you were mad at me for interfering with you and putting Maenam in danger and also she's a princess only not really but I'm probably a peasant or something in your eyes?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:39] CT: No, that's not it AT ALL.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:39] AA: It's not?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:39] CT: Caste doesn't really MATTER anymore, anyways. BESIDES, your text color...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:39] CT: Ah.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:39] CT: I'm AVOIDING it.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:39] CT: INTERESTING.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:40] AA: What is?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:40] CT: My AVOIDANCE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:40] CT: I may be AFRAID to tell you.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:40] CT: That's PARTICULAR.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:40] AA: Really? Why? Do you think I'll be angry?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:40] AA: Or hurt?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:40] CT: SCARED.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:41] AA: You think I'll be scared?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:41] CT: YES, I do.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:41] AA: I'm scared ALL THE TIME, Balish. What's one more scary thing added to the pile?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:42] CT: BECAUSE, it's someone you SEEM to care about, if ONLY in your STRAGE palepromiscuous way.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:42] AA: Huh?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:42] AA: Okay, now I *have* to know.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:42] CT: Are you SCARED of me, Sami?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:43] AA: I'm more scared FOR you than I am OF you.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:43] AA: I mean you were a little scary at Troll Christmas, but....I'm more worried about how it's affecting you than I am about what it'll do to me.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:44] CT: Okay, no more AVOIDING, the LAST time someone was PUSHED into a relationship, it FELL aparant, and she got... HURT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:44] AA: What do you mean?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:45] AA: You mean like she got her heart broken?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:50] CT: Well her HEART ended UP hurt.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:50] AA: That's a weird way to phrase that, Balish.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:51] CT: Sami I'm not PROUD of it, but it happened. She NEEDED to be CULLED after she REVEALED what was going on.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[02:51] AA: What?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:03] CT: CULLED. You KNOW the word?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:03] AA: Yeah....I wouldn't usually use it for a person though.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:04] AA: Someone KILLED her?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:04] CT: No.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:04] CT: Not SOMEONE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:04] CT: I did.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:04] AA: Oh, Balish...!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:05] AA: Why did she NEED to be "culled?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:05] AA: And was this YOU you, or the OTHER you?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:06] CT: She was being MANIPULATED by the Sept into CORRALING me in. She felt NOTHING but forced a flushed relationship until she couldn't TAKE it anymore.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:06] CT: She REVEALED what was GOING ON and I ended her.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:07] AA: Oh, Balish. I understand why you felt hurt and betrayed....but KILLING her over it?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:07] CT: I DID what was NECESSARY.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:08] AA: I just don't understand why that was necessary, I guess.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:08] CT: She OFFERED an ultimatum, and I CHOOSE something she didn't WANT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:08] CT: It's WHY I've used SHITTY kitchen knives as WEAPONS.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:09] AA: What kind of ultimatum? Was she threatening you?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:09] CT: It's what I had on HAND.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:09] AA: I'm sorry, I'm not trying to pry....I just want to understand.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:09] CT: Sami, this is the Purpleblooded SPET of SUBBJUGGULATORS.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:09] CT: Threatening is NORMAL.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:09] AA: I don't want to believe you would kill someone just because they turned out to be crappy people.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:10] CT: I don't WANT to delve TOO MUCH Sami.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:10] CT: It's NOT SOMETHING I like to THINK about.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:11] AA: I know. I'm sorry. I just want some sort of reassurance that I can trust you not to do that to one of us. I mean I trust the rest of the players I've met, but like...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:11] CT: It was DIFFERENT with her.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:11] AA: ...well I mean, I heard you and Null have been fighting, for example. You wouldn't cull her, would you?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:11] CT: No.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:11] CT: Nullar's TOO IMPORTANT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:12] AA: You mean important as a teammate? Or important as a friend?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:12] CT: Sami...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:13] AA: And don't give me this quadrant stuff, Balish! This isn't me trying to pale flirt or something, this is me needing to know that if Null stops being a helpful team member, you're going to turn on her just because she's been making some reckless decisions!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:14] AA: Or if I can trust you to still be a loyal friend even if she can't help us win.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:14] CT: She TRIED to let him take OVER.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:14] CT: It was cull HER lose MYSELF.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:14] AA: Oh, you mean this other girl?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:14] CT: yes.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:15] AA: Okay. Well....I guess I can sort of understand that then.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:15] CT: it was THEIR plan, when she couldn't KEEP up the act.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:15] AA: I mean I still don't like it....and I really don't like that you went through it.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:15] AA: But it sounds like she was basically attacking you.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:16] CT: make me UNCONCIOUS and he comes OUT, that's what she said.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:16] AA: Wow.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:16] AA: I can't understand why anyone would WANT him to come out.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:17] AA: ...no offense. I mean I guess he's part of you somehow.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:17] AA: ...but I like the Balish I'm talking to a lot better than I like that other Balish.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:17] CT: I STABBED her SIDE and CHOKED the life from her EYES with her OWN specubus.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:18] AA: I....didn't really need to know the details, Balish.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:18] CT: I DID.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:18] CT: Not HIM.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:18] AA: Yeah, but....it was to keep him from coming out.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:18] CT: It DIDN'T WORK.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:18] AA: I mean it's still awful that you did that, but it sounds like it was kind of the lesser of two evils.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:19] CT: I came TO with purple on the WALLS purple on the floor and that WORD.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:19] CT: I

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:19] CT: I need a MOMENT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:19] AA: Yeah. Okay. I'm sure this is hard for you.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:19] AA: Look, you don't have to relive it for me, either. I think I see where you're going here.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:20] CT: THIS is why I didn't want to TALK about it.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:20] AA: Yeah. I'm sorry.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:20] CT: You're RIGHT not to TRUST me.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:20] CT: But I THOUGHT you deserved a REASON, at least.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:21] AA: I *do* trust you Balish. But now I know how serious this really is.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:21] CT: Maenam is SOMEONE I care for, I can't LOSE her like that.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:21] AA: And I understand why me encouraging Maenam left you feeling so raw. :(

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:21] CT: It's WHY I need to STOP feeling toward Nullar TOO.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:21] AA: Stop?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:21] AA: You mean stop being friends with her?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:22] CT: Yes.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:22] CT: If SOMETHING like that HAPPENS I need to do what NEEDS to be DONE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:22] AA: Oh, Balish. I don't think you have to stop being friends with her!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:22] CT: Without RELYING on Him.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:22] AA: No! Null is our friend, Balish! She might be startstruck by Jack right now, but on the inside she cares about us.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:23] AA: You don't NEED to be able to do anything because it's NOT going to happen.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:23] AA: She won't betray us to him.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:23] CT: I can't SHAKE the feeling you are WRONG.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:24] CT: She LOOKS like her TOO.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:24] AA: Look. You've been through a lot. I understand why it's so hard for you to trust again, and why these memories make it even harder.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:24] AA: And I trust you, too, Balish.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:25] AA: But....I won't let you hurt her. You OR the Other You.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:25] CT: I KNOW.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:25] AA: I don't mean that as a threat.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:25] CT: I know.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:25] CT: You're BETTER than I am.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:25] AA: I don't know about that. There's darkness inside me, too.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:26] AA: And clearly Libby thinks you're the bee's knees. She's too smart to be ALL wrong about that. =P

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:26] CT: You're ATTEMPTING to lighten the MOOD.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:26] AA: A little, yeah.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:27] CT: I APPRECIATE the attempt.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:27] AA: Anyway, I don't think this has to change anything between us. Not really, anyway.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:27] CT: If you could find ONE troll to HELP, you would be the PERFECT moirail, you KNOW that?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:28] AA: Haha. I don't know about that.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:28] CT: WHATEVER.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:28] AA: I know of one who could use the help....but we'll have to see what happens there.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:28] CT: Oh?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:29] AA: Sorry. I don't want to gossip about it.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:29] AA: Especially because I may have already screwed things up.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:29] AA: But we'll see where the future goes.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:29] CT: Sami, you are HUMAN.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:29] CT: You should seek AID with trollian concepts.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:30] AA: Yeah, but....if I talk about this stuff, wouldn't it be betraying her trust?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:30] AA: Or his trust. Or whatever.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:30] CT: You do the SAME dumb thing Ryspor does.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:31] AA: I don't think I've met Ryspor. He was Doir's moirail though, right?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:31] CT: YES.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:32] AA: I would hate to break anyone's heart....or diamond, or whatever the term would be for this, like he did Doir's...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:32] CT: He is ALSO a paleslut.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:32] AA: ...but I don't really know what happened there.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:32] CT: PARDON the CRUDITY.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:32] AA: It's not the first time a troll has called me some sort of slut.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:32] AA: I'm growing numb to it.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:32] CT: It's just WEIRD to be this NICE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:32] CT: Maenam was ALWAYS an oddball.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:33] CT: I think Ryspor was DROPPED as a wriggler

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:33] AA: Yeah, I was about to say! Maenam's one of the sweetest people I know.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:33] AA: She's sweeter than a lot of HUMANS I know.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:33] CT: But you SEEM sain enough, yet STILL retain the mode of thinking.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:34] CT: NOW.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:34] CT: SEEK COUNSIL from me.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:35] AA: Okay, well um....THIS ONE PARTICULAR troll admitted to having a palecrush for me.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:35] CT: Okay, AND?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:36] AA: And I totally reciprocate the feelings of wanting to fix her problems and share secrets with one another and everything. So I mean so far so good, right?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:36] CT: CONTINUE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:37] AA: But she says she might need me to be MEAN to her from time to time to set her on the right path. I think maybe I could try to be all drill-sergeanty like the Colonel, but I don't think I could actually be MEAN mean.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:37] AA: Just like....forceful, at best.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:38] CT: Uh, WELL, it's not a USUAL moirail THING.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:38] CT: If you are UNCOMFORTABLE with how SHE wishes to TAKE it, there is NO NEED to force yourself into the RELATIONSHIP.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:38] CT: BESIDES, I know how HARD it would be to ACT exclusive.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:39] CT: I know I'm going to need to have a LONG talk with Maenam about THIS, at least.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:39] AA: Well, yeah, you would be right, but then she said that someone else had tried that thing on her and she got in a fist fight with him over it.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:39] CT: NOT that I feel PALE for you, it's just CIRCUMSTANCIAL, and could be INTERPERATED as such a WAY.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:39] CT: Fist FIGHT?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:40] AA: Or something. I don't know. IT sounded like it was a full on brawl.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:40] CT: Nullar is INTERESTED in being Pale with you?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:40] AA: Crud.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:40] CT: I was THERE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:40] CT: I ENCOURAGED Rilset, too.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:40] CT: He NEEDED to stand UP for himself, in SOME way.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:40] AA: Flip. I'm so bad at this!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:41] CT: Yes, you ARE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:41] CT: It SOUNDS like.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:41] AA: Look, can you just....forget that you know this? I really didn't mean to reveal things about her.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:41] CT: NEVERMIND.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:41] CT: I'm NOT going to BADGER Nullar about this.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:42] AA: -_- I guess Scarlet already knows it all anyway, but still. It was really important to me not to talk about her behind her back.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:42] AA: She's really sensitive about that sort of thing. :(

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:42] CT: I KNOW...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:42] CT: Ugh.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:43] AA: Look, the main thing is....I just want to see if we can become moirails, but I couldn't commit to it yet, and I think she thought I was saying I just wanted to stay platonic friends.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:43] AA: Did I screw things up?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:44] CT: I was PALE for Nullar once, WOW I made a bad choice PUSHING you to talk about it.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:44] AA: Oh man. I'm sorry.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:44] AA: This is really awkward.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:44] CT: RATHER funny if you ASK me.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:44] AA: Oh crickets. I am the worst at quadrants.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:44] CT: I BELIEVE you messed UP, honestly.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:44] AA: It's me.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:45] AA: Yeah. I think you're right.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:45] CT: Nullar has NO FRAME of reference to KNOW when you CAN commit, if you EVER could.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:45] CT: If SOMEONE came to you with a PROBLEM, there is NO WAY you could turn them DOWN.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:45] CT: And that HURTS, I know.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:46] AA: I don't know. MAYBE I could. If I could figure out someone else to send them to...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:46] AA: ...except Beau.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:46] AA: That's the biggest problem, I think.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:46] CT: Sami, you could NEVER turn someone DOWN.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:46] CT: This CONVERSATION is proof.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:46] AA: Huh?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:46] CT: I OPENED up a little and what did you DO?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:47] CT: REASSURED me like NO ONES buisness.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:47] CT: You could have SIMPLY not POKED too deep, or SAID you were UNCOMFORTABLE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:47] CT: It's NOT what you want to HEAR, but I'm not going to LIE to a friend.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:48] AA: Well but I mean....I had to know this stuff so I'd know I could trust you not to hurt Null...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:48] AA: ...I guess I was kind of reassuring, though.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:48] CT:.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:48] CT: OKAY.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:48] AA: Flip. I think you're right.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:48] CT: You feel PALE for Nullar, so I think I can TELL you.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:49] CT: When HE is in charge, he has an... URGE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:49] AA: Huh?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:50] CT: He THINKS about the people I CARE about, and TARGETS them.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:50] CT: THOUGHTS turn VIOLENT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:50] AA: Oh, Balish. That's awful!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:50] CT: I have had VERY VERY... HARD thoughts about Libby, Maenam, Nullar, Beau, and Yourself.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:51] AA: Really? Me and Beau too?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:51] CT: DO not get too CARRIED away.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:51] CT: SOME of you humans had to be OKAY.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:51] CT: It's JUSt statistics.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:52] CT: But YES, those are the STRONGEST.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:58] AA: But that means you think of us as friends, right?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:59] CT: Yes...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[03:59] AA: Look....I don't want to gossip about her, and I don't want to meddle, but....I think Null really thinks you hate her right now.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:00] CT: Ugh, SOMETIMES I can't help but think I DO.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:00] CT: But I can't THINK of her like THAT.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:00] CT: HE would get TOO excited, and Libby isn't READY yet.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:03] AA: Wait....you mean THAT kind of hate?!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:03] CT: Erm.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:03] CT: Ugh.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:03] CT: SHUT up Sami.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:03] AA: Sorry.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:04] AA: I'm not trying to pry or meddle, it's just....I think Libby would REALLY not be okay with that. So I'm definitely with you on keeping things from developing in that direction!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:05] AA: I won't tell Null. But I meant I think she thinks you PLATONICALLY hate her.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:05] CT: Oh.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:05] CT: Why?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:05] CT: That's NEW.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:05] AA: Well honestly I think she thinks your whole team hates her. Probably over the Jack thing.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:06] AA: It's just....if you ARE still her friend, it'd be good to do something to reassure her of that. Whatever the appropriate thing is to reassure someone you're still friends platonically is.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:06] CT: I'd LIKE to, but she's... I don't WANT to get her HOPES up.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:07] AA: Yeah. I understand it's delicate.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:07] AA: I just hate that she thinks you guys hate her platonically.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:07] CT: I'll TRY to talk to HER.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:07] AA: Okay. Thanks.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:08] AA: And I think you're right about the moirail thing, too.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:08] CT: SEEMS like I'm doing YOUR job, though, paleflirt.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:08] AA: *sigh*

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:08] CT: Or SHOULD I say greyflirt now?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:08] AA: Huh? This is the second time you've said something about me being grey.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:08] AA: Null said that was the couples counseling one, right?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:08] CT: Uh.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:08] CT: KIND of.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:09] CT: It's a WAY to keep a relationship that WOULD be dangerous. NOT dangerous.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:09] AA: Oh.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:10] AA: Well that sounds pretty important to me.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:10] CT: Yeah, the FIRST time I was REFERRING to My PERSONALITY and the OTHER, because it IS usually a black relationship that needs an Auspice.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:11] AA: Oh....I didn't even think about that as a relationship.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:11] AA: I guess I *was* doing that.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:12] CT: Yes, you WERE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:12] CT: SETTING me up with a moirail is TOTALLY in that RANGE, for myself at LEAST.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:12] AA: Look, clearly I handled that the wrong way. I see that now.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:13] AA: But I don't feel bad about trying to keep that from being dangerous.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:13] CT: Erm, SORRY, I was JOKING about it...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:13] CT: TRYING your LIGHTHEARTED thing, since this is BUGGING you.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:13] AA: Oh. Okay.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:13] AA: Oh. Okay. I'm sorry I didn't realize that.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:13] CT: It's FINE I suppose.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:13] AA: Heh. Look at me being the one to bring down the room!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:14] CT: SHOCKING. Usually YOU are the bright one.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:14] CT: ANNOYINGLY bright.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:14] AA: Heh.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:15] AA: No one's ever accused me of being "bright" before. I'm going to assume trolls use that word differently from humans. ;)

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:15] CT: ALRIGHT, it has OTHER meanings, but I mean the CHEERFUL one.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:15] CT: CLEARLY a definition.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:16] AA: Okay Balish. Thanks for telling me all this. And I'm sorry I can't seem to keep it in my pants, pale-ishly speaking.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:16] CT: LOOK at you, being CRUDE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:16] CT: It's FINE, since NEITHER of us feel pale for ONE ANOTHER.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:17] AA: Okay. But I don't want to step on Maenam's toes either.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:17] CT: WELL, as much as you CAN I imagine.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:17] CT: I'll TALK to her about it, don't WORRY, it's MORE SO dealing with the CIRCUMSTANCE.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:17] AA: Yeah. Okay.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:18] CT: Well, be CAREFUL out there, greyslut. SOME horribly BLACK couple may SWOOP you right UP.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:18] CT: I should GO, Libby has been TALKING with Ryspor for a LONG while.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:18] AA: Hahaha. Okay. I'll be super careful.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:18] AA: Bye Balish.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:19] CT: Goodbye, STAY well.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> -- arcaneArtisan [AA] gave up trolling conciseTactician [CT] at 04:19 --