121813-Beau-Ryspor

[11:27] -- chessAficionado [CA] began pestering gregariousTroubadour [GT] at 23:27 --

[11:28] GT: i'm really not in the mood right now, whatever it is

[11:28] CA: Hmm?...

[11:28] CA: I just wanted to ask what's up...

[11:28] CA: and now I definitly need to know what's up...

[11:28] GT: nothing is "up'

[11:28] CA: I can't have people being all sad, I mean everyone usually comes to me with their problems anyway...

[11:29] CA: so I might as well be the active 'consuler'...

[11:29] GT: i should really be saving this for my moirail, but the idiot isn't online and i

[11:29] GT: i just messed everything up, beau

[11:30] CA: :? Oh dear...

[11:30] CA: Perhaps I can help more than you think, I felt that way recently...

[11:31] GT: jossik came back from his exile and we talked for a while

[11:31] CA: Ok...

[11:31] GT: then he told me he was flushed for me

[11:31] CA: oh...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:31] CA: Ok, go on...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:31] GT: i

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:31] GT: i told him i needed to think about it

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:31] CA: Ok...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:31] GT: what do i DO beau

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:32] GT: i broke his heart

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:32] CA: Hold on one second...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:32] CA: Ok, Jossik just contacted me...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:33] GT: oh no

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:33] GT: oh no oh no oh no what does he say

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:33] GT: what did he say

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:33] GT: please don't tell him i'm contacting you

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:33] CA: Ok...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:34] CA: He's saying that he really loves you...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:34] GT: gog i know he does i can tell

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:35] GT: he blushed so hard beau

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:35] GT: it was kind of cute actually

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:36] CA: I'm sure...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:37] CA: We all have our perfect matchs Ryspor...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:37] GT: but what if he's not mine?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:37] GT: what if i'm not his?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:37] GT: what if i mess this up more than i already have

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:38] GT: i suppose that's not really an option anymore, haha

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:38] CA: Look I'm not forcing you to do anthing...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:38] CA: but I'm just saying, you both seem to have some chemistry...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:39] CA: and he thinks you're really cute...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:39] GT: it's just very sudden you know

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:39] GT: and i panicked

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:39] CA: well, I want you to think...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:40] CA: think really hard...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:40] CA: and then I want to tell me the truth...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:40] CA: in complete confidence...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:40] CA: I will tell no one...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:40] CA: but I want you to tell me...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:40] CA: exactly how you feel about Jossik...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:41] GT: ...well, he's very nice

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:41] GT: and friendly

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:41] GT: and he enjoys a lot of the same things i do

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:41] GT: and he cares so much about doing the right thing

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:41] CA: mhmm...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:42] GT: and i just remember thinking when he ran away that i didn't want to lose him

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:42] GT: i had to keep in touch with him

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:42] CA: I see...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:42] CA: so you care about him a lot, am I correct?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:42] GT: very much

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:43] CA: You said earlier you panicked...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:43] CA: What do you mean by that?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:44] GT: i had just never really given the concept that much thought before then, and so when jossik blurted it out, it scared me a little

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:44] GT: it felt like he was asking me to make a very big decision that i wasn't ready to make

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:44] GT: and i don't like being put on the spot

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:45] CA: Do you wish you reacted differently?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:45] GT: i wish i had talked with him more about it instead of just shutting it down

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:46] GT: i feel so guilty now beau

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:46] CA: Ryspor...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:46] CA: Don't...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:46] CA: It's not your fault...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:47] GT: no, it is most definitely my fault

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:47] GT: he threw his feelings bare, and i stepped all over them

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:47] GT: i felt so sick when i saw the look on his face

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:47] CA: People freeze up...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:48] CA: Ryspor, he thinks that it's his fault, that he shouldn't have rushed in like that...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:49] GT: he's always so self-detrimental

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:50] GT: he takes all the burden onto himself

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:50] GT: i wish i could help him share the burden

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:50] CA: You both think that you respectively fucked it up is it possible that neither of you did?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:50] GT: what do you mean?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:51] CA: It's no one's fault this happened...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:51] CA: Sometimes, people freeze up under pressure...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:51] CA: that is no one's fault...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:52] GT: i suppose

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:53] GT: that doesn't change the fact that it happened

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:53] CA: Of course...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:53] CA: but that doesn't mean it's the end...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:54] GT: what am i supposed to do then?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:54] GT: how do i make this better?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:55] GT: i don't want to lose jossik, beau, and i'm afraid that i'm about to because of my stupidity

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:55] CA: Ryspor, do you know what I did when I felt I was losing my friends?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:56] CA: I let them go, and I regret it everyday...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:56] GT: but i don't want to tell him no; i don't want to break his heart all over again

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:57] CA: Do you really want to say no?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:58] GT: i just said i didn't!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:58] CA: so you...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:58] CA: do love him?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:59] GT: i...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[11:59] GT: maybe?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:00] GT: there's...a possibility for something

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:00] CA: You're lucky you know?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:01] GT: why is that?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:05] CA: Well for one, you have me to help :p...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:05] GT: haha

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:06] CA: Here's my advice...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:06] CA: Sit down and just talk...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:06] CA: Talk to him about how you feel...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:07] CA: explain why you feel that way...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:08] GT: ok

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:08] GT: ok yes i should do that

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:08] GT: i can do that at least

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:09] CA: Ok, you go do that...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:10] CA: I was happy to help, good luck :)...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[12:10] -- chessAficionado [CA] ceased pestering gregariousTroubadour [GT] at 00:10 --