061414-Beau-Ryspor

 -- chessAficionado [CA] began pestering gregar1ousTroubadour [GT] at 00:13 --

 [12:14] CA: "Hey Ryspor"...

 [12:14] CA: "Have you ever thought"...

 [12:14] CA: "That I *knew* what I was doing?"...

 [12:15] GT: ~"How abovt yov ʃHVT THE FVCK VP," he hiʃʃeʃ.~

 [12:16] CA: "I am trying my best to protect everyone, it does not help that people seem bent on stopping me"...

 [12:19] GT: ~"I ʃAID, ʃHVT. THE FVCK. VP!" He takeʃ a ʃtep towardʃ her, eyeʃ ʃlitted almoʃt like a cat'ʃ. "YOV ʃTVPID, IGNORANT FOOL!"~

 [12:25] CA: "*I* should shut up?! I've been one of the few people here actually listening to REASON!" Beau takes a step forward, her eyes full of rage. "YOU call me a fool and yet you. You are the BLINDEST, MOST IGNORANT, IDIOT I HAVE EVER MET!" ...

 [12:26] CA: "I WAS TRYING TO STOP HER BEFORE ANYONE GOT HURT"...

 [12:26] CA: "I WAS TRYING, FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE, TO DO THE RIGHT THING"...

 [12:27] GT: ~"WELL, CONGRATVLATIONʃ! YOV CAN LORD YOVR ʃVPERIORITY OVER ME ONCE AND FOR ALL, LIKE YOV'VE *ALWAYʃ WANTED TO DO*!"~

 [12:27] CA: "IS *THAT* WHAT YOU THINK I WANT TO DO?"...

 [12:27] CA: "GOD HOW STUPID ARE YOU?"...

 [12:28] CA: "IF YOU HAVEN'T CHECKED, THE LAFT FUCKING THING I AM IS HIGH AND FUCKING MIGHTY...

 [12:28] GT: ~"I THINK YOV ARE THE MOʃT ʃELF-CENTERED INDIVIDVAL I HAVE EVER MET!" he roarʃ.~

 [12:28] CA: "SELF-CENTERED? WHAT THE FUCK HAS GIVEN YOU THAT IDEA?"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:28] CA: "REALLY, I WANT TO KNOW"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:28] GT: ~"BECAVʃE YOV DON'T FVCKING LIʃTEN, BEAV!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:29] GT: ~"YOV NEVER HAVE!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:29] GT: ~"NOT TO ME, OR DOIR, OR NATE, OR *ANYONE*!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:29] GT: ~"NO ONE Iʃ RIGHT BVT *YOV*!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:29] CA: "AND WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN FOR THE PAST FUCKING MONTHS?!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:29] GT: ~"*CLEANING VP AFTER YOVR TEAM'ʃ FVCKIGN MEʃʃEʃ*!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:30] CA: "I'M NEVER RIGHT RYSPOR, DON'T YOU GET THAT?!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:30] CA: "I DON'T CLEAN THEM, I MAKE THEM!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:30] CA: AND IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIX THAT!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:30] CA: FOR ONCE, I KNEW I WAS RIGHT AND I WAS GOING TO ACTUALY BE USEFUL FOR ONCE!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:31] CA: "BUT INSTEAD YOU DECIDE THAT YOU'RE OBVIOUSLY THE HIGHEST POWER AND EVERYONE SHOULD LISTEN TO YOU!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:31] GT: ~"THIʃ Iʃ *EXACTLY* MY POINT!" he ʃcreamʃ. "YOV'RE *ʃOOOOOOOO FVCKING CONVINCED* THAT YOV'RE TERRIBLE, AND VʃELEʃʃ, AND NOTHING YOV *EVER* DO TVRNʃ OVT RIGHT, EVEN THOVGH WE HAVE BEEN TELLING YOV OTHERWIʃE FOR MONTHʃ, *FVCKING MONTHʃ*!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:31] GT: ~"YOV REFVʃE TO LIʃTEN, BECAVʃE YOV KNOW YOV'RE VʃELEʃʃ AND THEREFORE IT MVʃT BE THE GOʃPEL TRVTH!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:33] CA: "THERE'S A REASON FOR THAT RYSPOR!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:33] CA: "BECAUSE DESPITE WHAT YOU SAY, DESPITE WHAT WORDS YOU SPEAK, THE TRUTH STILL STOOD!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:33] CA: DID YOU KNOW I'V BEEN GETTING BETTER?!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:34] CA: RECENTLY, I'VE STARTED ACTUALL BELIEVING I WAS WORTH SOMETHING!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:34] CA: BUT ALL MY ATTEMPTS TO PROVE MYSELF WERE STOPPED!!!

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:35] GT: ~"GOD, DO YOV *EVER* ʃHVT VP?" he aʃkʃ. "IT'ʃ ALWAYʃ TALK TALK TALK, AND NO ONE'ʃ ABLE TO GET A WORD IN EDGEWIʃE!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:36] GT: ~"YOV'RE ʃO FOCVʃED ON PROVING YOVR ʃIDE OF THE ARGVMENT, YOV NEVER BOTHER TO LIʃTEN TO THE OTHER ʃIDE!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:36] CA: "that's all I do...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:37] CA: "I listen and listen and listen but as soon as I talk I'm a blabbermouth, as soon as I try and prove myself I'm foolish, as soon as I worry about myself for once I'm concited...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:37] CA: But you want me to shut up?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:37] CA: Fine...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:37] CA: Fucking tear out my tongue for all I care...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:38] CA: But I know you really don't...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:38] CA: You don't care about any of us, just the one's you've specially selected...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:38] CA: Go speak with Doir, he's your bestie, aint he?"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:39] GT: ~Ryʃpor lookʃ aʃ if he'ʃ been ʃlapped in the face. "Yov're right," he ʃayʃ qvietly.~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:40] CA: "Ain't that a goddamn change of pace"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:41] GT: ~"Yov're right! Congratvlationʃ, yov've figvred it ovt! I DON'T care! That mvʃt be why I RVN MYʃELF RAGGED trying to keep everyone alive!"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:42] CA: "Then WHY did you stop me?"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:43] GT: ~"BECAVʃE I CARE ABOVT MY MOIRAIL *JVʃT A BIT MORE THAN I CARE ABOVT MY FRIENDʃ*!" he ʃayʃ, voice riʃing again.~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:43] GT: ~"I THOVGHT I WAʃ DOING THE RIGHT THING TOO, BEAV, DID YOV EVER THINK OF THAT?"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:44] GT: ~"And then it tvrned ovt 'Libby' waʃ JACK, and I'd FAILED. AGAIN. I'D ʃTOOD BY AND LET MY FRIENDʃ GET HVRT, JVʃT LIKE I ALWAYʃ MANAGE TO DO."~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:45] GT: ~"*I* LET MEOVET GO OFF WITH PELLOK. *I* LET JOʃʃIK AND KIKATE DIE. *I* LET MYʃELF BE CVRʃED, LIKE AN IDIOT."~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:46] CA: "And you say I'm obsessed with being wrong?"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:47] GT: ~"I WIʃH I *DIDN'T* CARE ʃO MVCH, BECAVʃE WHEN I CARE, I GET INVOLVED, AND WHEN I GET INVOLVED, PEOPLE *DIE*, OR THEY GET *HVRT*, OR *TRAPPED*, AND *I CAN'T ʃTOP IT*."~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:47] CA: "Ryspor you've saved so many more than you've lost...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:47] CA: "Remember? You saved everyone on LOWAD"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:48] GT: ~"That waʃ a FLVKE. I waʃ BABBLING, ʃcared ovt of my fvcking WITʃ."~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:48] CA: "You've shown so much power Ryspor"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:48] CA: "You are so strong"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:48] CA: "And I am so sorry"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:49] CA: "I take back everything I said"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:49] GT: ~"I broke Joʃʃik'ʃ heart," he ʃayʃ brokenly. "I broke Doir'ʃ too, and Libby'ʃ, and Kate'ʃ, and yovrʃ, and ʃo many otherʃ. I jvʃt..." He lookʃ at her, tearʃ welling in hiʃ eyeʃ. "I break everything I tovch, Beav."~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:50] CA: "Then learn how to fix it..."...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:51] CA: "I don't know how to give you any more specific advice than that"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:52] GT: ~He lavghʃ bitterly. "Yov think I haven't tried? I've done ʃo many thingʃ, and NOTHING EVER WORKʃ."~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:52] CA: "Because you go at it alone"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:53] CA: "You need to let people help you, like you try and help them"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:53] GT: ~"Liʃten to yovrʃelf," he ʃayʃ. "Yov're telling me the exact advice yov've refvʃed yovrʃelf ʃo many timeʃ."~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:54] CA: 'Because I have a problem I've been trying to fix"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:59] GT: ~"And that giveʃ yov an excvʃe to diʃregard yovr own advice? Becavʃe it'ʃ from an 'vnreliable ʃovrce'?"~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:00] CA: "No... because there's a voice inside my head that says I'm wrong every step of the way"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:00] CA: "And for a very long time... I believed it"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:02] CA: "Heh, listen to me, this is an incredibly moirail-esque conversation isn't it?"...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:06] GT: ~"It...it iʃ." He backʃ away, eyeʃ widening in realization and horror. "I can't do thiʃ. I..." He ʃtandʃ there for a few momentʃ more, before tvrning tail and rvnning.~

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:07] CA: "I'm sorry..."...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> -- gregar1ousTroubadour [GT] ceased pestering chessAficionado [CA] at 01:10 --