092014erisiosami

[09:22] GC: Erisio sheepsihly approaches Sami, his eyes intently focused on that bit of dust on the floor

 [09:23] GC: "Hi, uh, miss Heston?"

 [09:30] AA: Sami is in the kitchen, trying to cook something. Her eyes are red and puffy. She must've been cutting onions.

 [09:30] AA: "Oh, hi....Erisio was it?"

 [09:30] GC: "Uh yeah, Um are you ok?"

 [09:31] AA: "Uh....yeah. I mean....no. But I'm used to not being ok at this point."

 [09:31] AA: "What's up."

 [09:32] AA: "You feeling any better?"

 [09:33] AA: "I don't know how Sylph magic works for Life players, but I'll bet it doesn't hurt anywhere near as much as Time magic Sylph healing."

 [09:33] GC: "Well yeah I guess, but uh... Do you want to talk about whatever*s not ok?"

[11:27] AA: Sami sighs. "No. I can't talk about a lot of it anyway, and....I don't know. It doesn't sound like it's something we can stop from happening, so I just want to make the best of things while I can."

 [11:28] GC: "Yeah I guess that makes sense... That*s how I am with most things, since everything*s gonna go to shit sooner or later, usually because of me"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:29] AA: "Oh god. Kid, let me tell you, you've got nothing on me in the 'making decisions that fuck yourself over' department."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:30] AA: "Or the 'making well-meaning decisions that fuck your friends over' department either.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:30] GC: "I just shot myself with a magic gun while trying to unload it"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:30] GC: "And that*s not even my worse"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:30] GC: *worst

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:30] AA: "Oh? Have you managed to get possessed by demons by learning to do magic drawings?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:31] AA: "Have you decided to take on a double-god-tiered serial killer way before your team is ready?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:32] GC: "I don*t know what half that even means"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:32] GC: "Besides, it ain*t a contest, shit just gets fucked"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:32] AA: "I'm just saying, you're not as bad as you think you are."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:33] GC: "Yeah, ok" He does not believe you and it is obvious. "Anyway, as to the reason I wanted to speak to you, I wanted to ask you more about Null, like how she was in your session."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:33] GC: "Rilset too, and this Doir guy I*ve heard so much about"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:33] AA: "Oh. Right, she's your mom, isn't she?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:34] AA: "Why Rilset?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:34] GC: "Mhm"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:34] GC: "He*s like my step dad"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:34] GC: "Even though he isn*t my biological dad, he raised me with Null, in yggdrasil"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:34] AA: "I don't know Rilset that well. Which is probably sad considering I've known him five years. But he mostly keeps to himself."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:34] AA: "Or stays with Scarlet."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:35] GC: He visibly shudders at the mention of Scarlet

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:36] AA: "Yeah....Scarlet and I aren't on great terms either. We used to be. She's always so nice to me outwardly. But recently she used me to get a friend killed."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:37] AA: "Used Rilset too I guess, but he seems to be fine with being used by her. Whatever."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:37] AA: "Rilset and Null were an item for a while, but Null got tired of him because he was too nice and he....never really dealt with it very well I think."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:38] GC: He looks generally heart broken at this

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:38] GC: "Oh well, wow didn*t really think being told the kid versions of my parents broke up, that*s weird"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:38] AA: "I don't know. I think she still had some feelings for him....she always got nervous when he came up in conversation afterward."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:39] AA: "Null was really twisted up inside in a lot of ways. I think she had a lot of trauma that made it hard for her to connect to people the way she deserved."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:39] AA: "I think what she needed more than anything was a moirail. And I was going to be one for her....but I was scared of hurting her, and by the time I got up the nerve to say yes she disappeared."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:40] AA: "...I like to believe she's still alive out there somewhere....but if so, she hasn't come to see me in five years." Sami sounds sad.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:40] AA: She sighs. "Not that she would be the first of my friends to just decide they didn't need to see me for a few years."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:40] GC: "Well, that*s where we*re in the same boat"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:41] GC: "Libby made a list of the parents confirmed to be dead, and the ones confirmed to be alive"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:41] GC: "Null wasn*t on either list"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:41] AA: "Huh. That's weird."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:42] GC: "She was always really stealthy, so I want to believe she*s out there somewhere, on one of these planets."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:42] AA: "Yeah. She was really stealthy in our session too."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:42] AA: "Null was the Maid of Hope. Which is a little surprising given how prone she was to despair. But....I don't know. Maybe it means we can still hold out hope for her."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:43] AA: "Whether or not she would be holding out hopes for herself."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:47] GC: "I*ll keep on hoping, despite being a mind player"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:47] GC: "But what about this Doir guy?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:55] AA: "Doir? Actually, he was supposed to come along with me and Maenam, but we couldn't find him."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:56] AA: "I wouldn't be surprised if Libby dumps him somewhere around here as soon as he shows up."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:56] GC: "I see... Shame, Lily was excited..."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:56] AA: "Yeah. Doir's....um....Doir's..."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:57] AA: Sami seems to be searching for a description.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:57] AA: "Did you ever watch Invader Zim? You know GiR?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:58] GC: "Invader Zim? Is he another player?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:59] AA: "No, it was a cartoon. Maybe they didn't make it in this universe."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [11:59] GC: "Maybe they did? I never really watched tv, and when I did, it was troll tv"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:00] AA: "Huh. Well imagine you had like....a hummingbird."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:00] GC: "Ok"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:00] AA: "Only this hummingbird thinks everything that's happening to him is pretend."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:01] GC: "Uh"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:01] AA: "And also he lives by a philosophy of 'Yolo.'"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:01] GC: "Oh dear"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:02] AA: "Doir's been through a lot of shit. I think he's trying to make it seem like it didn't affect him."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:02] AA: "But....Jack used to be his best friend. Maybe even his lover. Then he took away those memories and left, then cheated his way into our session."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:03] GC: "Dude fuck Jack"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:03] AA: "Then Jack started killing people, and one of the people he killed was Doir."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:03] GC: "Fuuuuuuck jack"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:03] AA: "And Doir hasn't really been the same since."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:03] AA: "And so Null kissed him back to life, but kept all his stuff."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:04] GC: "Aw what?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:04] AA: "You know. Kiss-revive. It's how you make use of your Extra Life."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:04] AA: "You kiss someone's corpse and their dreamself wakes up and takes over as their real self."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:04] AA: "Or you kiss their dreamself."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:05] AA: "Or you can do the reverse, and get someone's awakeself to take over if they die in their dreams."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:05] GC: "I meant keeping all his stuff but that*s also p cool, if a bit weird"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:05] AA: "Oh. Yeah. Null saw it as payment for having to kiss him. She....wasn't his biggest fan."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:05] AA: "And after that, he wasn't her biggest fan, either."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:06] GC: "Then why*d they get paired up?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:06] GC: "Shit if that stupid pairing didn*t happen I wouldn*t even be around to fuck everything up"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:06] AA: "I'm not really sure. Best I can tell is that Rilset thought it would be funny."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:06] AA: "You guys weren't made through the, er, traditional methods, y'know?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:07] GC: "Yeah I know, Ectobiology"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:07] AA: "Yeah. Most of us didn't even know about it until after you guys had already been sent away."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:07] AA: "Heck, a lot of us were already dead when you were made. I guess the ectobiology machines can pull people's genetics from back in time."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:11] GC: "I see, that*s pretty interesting I guess. But I have a question. Just because I*m Doir*s son, and I*m going to be shackled with "definitely Doir*s kid" for the rest of my existence?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:11] AA: "...I don't know. You seem to have your head screwed on tighter than his."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:11] AA: "And honestly, he really IS trying to be better."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:12] AA: "It's good I ended up on a team with him, though. I can look out for him, try to keep him on track."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:15] GC: "I*ll try and look after him too"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:15] GC: "Maybe being around someone who could understand his mindset will help"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:19] AA: "Maybe."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:20] GC: "You don*t really believe me do you?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:20] AA: "I don't know. I thought *I* understood his mindset. But maybe you or Lily will do a better job than I have."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:24] GC: "Yeah I hope so"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:41] GC: "I guess I*m just afraid... this game is gonna get worse, and I don*t think I*m gonna be able to handle it"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:42] AA: "Yeah....it's definitely going to get worse. But don't worry. We'll help you handle it. We've been through the deepest shit you can imagine, and we made it out."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [12:49] AA: "And if there's one thing Doir has, it's an indominable will. Maybe you inherited that from him."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:32] GC: "Not so sure if that*s a good thing, based on what you*ve said"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:32] GC: "I mean I did just shoot myself"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:33] AA: "Well, are you ever going to let that happen again?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:33] GC: "I don*t know, I didn*t exactly *let* it happen. It just happened"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:34] AA: "Well I mean, are you going to mess with guns without knowing whether the safety's on or whatever?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:37] GC: "It was a revolver, it didn*t have one... I think"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:37] GC: "But yeah, I guess I*ll try"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:38] AA: Sami frowns. "The important thing is to learn from your mistakes."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:40] GC: "Yeah, that*s sort of what I do"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:40] AA: "Well then the only other thing is you've got to be tough enough to survive the mistakes."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:40] AA: "As long as you do both of those....you should be all set."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:41] AA: Sami sighs. "I've got the tough part down, but I haven't been great at the learning so far."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:41] GC: "Well depends, do you mean tough mentally or tough physically?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:41] AA: "Both, I guess."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:41] AA: "But it depends what kind of mistakes you make."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:41] GC: "Because physically, I can do that any day every day, but mentally is another story"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:43] AA: "Well then I guess work on toughening yourself up mentally. Because there's a lot of stuff in this game that'll mess with you psychologically."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:43] GC: "haha shit:

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:43] GC: *"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:44] GC: "Thanks for the advice Sami, you*re a pretty cool cat"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:44] AA: "You know one thing that really helps with feeling bad mentally though?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:44] GC: "Yeah?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:44] AA: "Good friends you can vent to. People you can tell all your secrets to."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:44] AA: "I guess what trolls would call moirails."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:46] AA: "I used to think friendship could overcome anything....I'm not so sure I believe that anymore. But they damned sure help when you're feeling low."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:46] GC: "Venting *is* nice"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:55] GC: "Don*t really wanna shackle other people with my shit though..."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:58] AA: "Yeah. It sucks. Especially when the shit you're shackled with is especially heavy." Sami sighs as if she knows that feeling all too well.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [01:59] AA: "But in my experience? Friends WANT to help you with that sort of thing. As long as you also help them when they have shit to unload."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:00] GC: "Guess that makes sense"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:02] AA: "I still don't really get moiraillegience that well, but I'm pretty sure moirails especially want to share that sort of stuff with one another. Do you have anyone you're pale for?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:07] GC: "I mean, me and Acey are always venting to each other, but we don*t always see eye to eye on things..."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:07] AA: "Acey? Oh, Acenia? She's your sister right?" Sami seems to think about it for a minute. "I always wanted a brother or sister. But I didn't have one. I think that's how brothers and sisters are SUPPOSED to be though."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:13] GC: "Maybe it*s best if you hadn*t one. I was super lucky enough for Acey to come with me in the game, but for you it might not have been the case..."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:39] AA: "Yeah....maybe. Leon's sister made it in, I think, but I have no idea what happened to her after that. Leon disappeared so quickly. And when we found him again, he didn't say anything about her."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:41] GC: "Yeesh, scary stuff"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:49] AA: "Yeah. Most of us lost track of our guardians after entering. Except me. Because my dad accidentally prototyped himself."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:50] GC: "I see, thanks for the talk Sami..."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:50] GC: "I*ll see you around, good luck with the cooking"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:50] AA: "Thanks. If you want some when I'm done, I'll try to make enough for everyone. Only I'm....not at all sure I'm a good cook."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:51] GC: "I*m sure it will taste like heaven compared to commisary. See ya"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [02:51] AA: "Later."