073115BeauSami

 -- chessAficionado [CA] began pestering arcaneArtisan [AA] at 22:03 --

 [10:03] CA: Hello, Sami. may I talk to you?...

 [10:04] AA: I don't know. I probably do need to talk to you, but I'm not sure it's a great time...

 [10:04] CA: I can... understand why...

 [10:04] AA: Things got crazy last night.

 [10:04] CA: Yes, Meouet was... kind enough... to provide photographs...

 [10:05] AA: What?

[10:05] -- chessAficionado [CA] as sent IMGFROMMEOUET.PNG --

 [10:06] AA: What. in. the. fucking. shit.

 [10:06] AA: God. I'm so sorry Beau. I don't even know what to say.

 [10:06] CA: It is ok Sami...

 [10:06] CA: It is not like I am in position to judge you...

 [10:06] CA: or be angry with you...

 [10:07] AA: What? Of course you can! You cheated on me with me! I cheated on you with...

 [10:07] AA: ...I don't know how you can even stand to talk to me.

 [10:08] CA: It seems like some sort of bizarre karma system...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:09] AA: I don't think of it that way.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:10] AA: Beau, I don't know what this means for us. I still love you, but....even though I can't very well still blame you for what happened, I just don't know what's going on anymore. Even in my own head.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:10] CA: I still love you too...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:10] AA: I'm so sorry things are happening like this.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:10] CA: I'm sorry too...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:10] CA: I never should have spoken to the other you...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:11] AA: I think we're going to have to remain separated for a little while longer. And if you want to date other people while that's the case, you have every right to. Heck, I encourage it. Maybe it'll help us understand ourselves and each other better that way.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:11] AA: Then maybe....some day....we can be together again. When we're not so fucked up.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:12] AA: Or at least when I'm not. If you even still want me by then.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:12] AA: Because who knows how long that'll take.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:12] CA: The only problem with that idea is that there is no one I want to be with other than you...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:13] CA: But I understand if you wish to remain seperated...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:13] AA: Oh Beau, please don't do that. You deserve so much better than me.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:14] CA: It's been so long and we both still think we don't deserve each other...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:14] AA: Okay, but I kind of have proof now.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:15] AA: I slept with my own son while you and I were separated. What kind of fucked up person does that?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:15] CA: I do not know...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:16] CA: What kind of fucked up person cheats on their fiance with a murderous alternate version of that person?...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:17] AA: Someone who loves his fiancee so much he can't let her cry even when it's a murderous alternate version of her?

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:18] AA: Seriously, let's not play "the who fucked up worse" game here. Because I'm the hands-down winner, forever.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:18] CA: Ok, fine you win, but that doesn't change how I feel...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:19] AA: I know it doesn't. But until I can feel like I deserve that kind of love again, I can't accept it.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:19] CA: I understand...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:19] AA: God this sucks.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:19] CA: majorly...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:21] CA: I just.. don't want this to be how it ends...

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:22] AA: At least try to find someone else, okay Beau? If you can't, you can't. But I want you to be happy, and I know I can't be the one to do it right now.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:22] AA: I don't want it to be the end either. But for now....it has to be.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> [10:22] AA: I'm sorry.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;"> -- arcaneArtisan [AA] ceased pestering chessAficionado [CA] at 22:22 --