021014 JossikKikate

[07:47] GG: Joss-k sw-ms up to K-kate, a worr-ed look on h-s face. "So, uh, you okay?"

[07:47] GG: "What happened there?"

[07:49] GT: { Kikate is curled up in the fetal position near the ocean floor. A small cloud of blue blood trickles out into the water from his arm, barely distinguishable from the deep blue of the ocean. He turns at the sound of Jossik's voice and smiles weakly. }

[07:50] GT: { I'm sorry... }

[07:50] GT: { I should've let you console me before I fled. }

[07:50] GT: { But I just couldn't take it... }

[07:50] GG: Joss-k gasps and grabs K-kate's arm. "K-kate! What the hell -s th-s?"

[07:51] GT: { I don't know, hmm? A cut, perhaps? Don't worry about it. }

[07:52] GG: "- am your fuck-ng mo-ra-l you can't just tell me to not worry about -t"

[07:52] GT: { Yes I can }

[07:52] GT: { As your moirail }

[07:52] GT: { I'm telling you to not worry }

[07:52] GT: { Why would I make you suffer for my personal hatred? }

[07:53] GG: "Because -'m your mo-ra-l. You're not mak-ng me -t's my gogdamn cho-ce."

[07:54] GT: { You waste your time on me... I appreciate it, I do, but you don't have to care so much. }

[07:54] GG: "Fuck you"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:55] GG: "-'m gonna care and there -sn't a godamn th-ng you can do about -t"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:55] GT: { Fine... You may do so... }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:55] GT: { To answer your question }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:56] GT: { I did it because I lost my temper at myself }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:56] GG: "And why the hell d-d that happen?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:57] GG: "- mean, - saw f-shb-tch k-ss you, but that's hardly your fault"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:57] GT: { Kikate suddenly snarls at Jossik and tears his hand away, getting up and backing up some offensively. }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:57] GT: { Don't call her that. }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:58] GT: { It's fairly obvious that she's being forced into a marriage, is it not? }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:58] GG: Joss-k crosses h-s arms calmly, un-mpressed by the d-splay.

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:58] GT: { I know that feeling all too well... }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:58] GT: { It's not very fun. }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:59] GT: { If she's flirting with me rather than Itaa... }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[07:59] GG: Joss-k s-ghs. "Alr-ght, so, horny f-shlady -s flush-ng for you because she's be-ng forced to marry. Whatever. - st-ll don't see why th-s made you angry at you."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[08:00] GT: { Because... I have to turn her down. }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[08:07] GT: { It's just another Seriad waiting to happen... }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[08:07] GT: { I just feel such guilt for not being able to satisfy Sotsias and help her. Obviously I'm happy with Kate, but I don't stop pitying her... }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[08:08] GT: { And that's eXactly why I hate myself. For feeling the guilt, not for the guilt itself. }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[08:08] GT: { I wish to just look past it, but it persists... }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[08:09] <span style="color:rgb(0,129,65);">GG: "Hearts get broken, K-kate. -t's just a th-ng that happens. -f she can't surv-ve that, then that's her problem."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;-qt-block-indent:0;text-indent:0px;">[04:53] <span style="color:rgb(0,58,110);">GT: { I'm not just worried about breaking her heart. I want to help her, remember? But regardless of how I do it someone gets hurt one way or another... }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:54] GG: "Dude, that's just the way th-ngs work somet-mes."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:55] GG: "You can't make everyone happy."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:55] GT: { "Sometimes it still feels like I'm not trying hard enough..." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:56] GG: "K-kate."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:56] GG: "You try harder than anyone - have ever seen."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:56] GG: "-t's almost r-d-culous how hard you try at th-s stuff"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:57] GT: { "And I still fail! That's why I cut, because I'm not good enough despite this and I still loathe myself!" }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[04:57] GG: "You fa-l because -t phys-cally -mposs-ble to succeed at what you're try-ng to do."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:00] GG: "But -n a way, you succeed. You succeed because you try harder than any sane troll would try."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:00] GG: "Ser-ously, th-s -s l-ke hat-ng yourself for not be-ng able to chew stone."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:02] GT: { "Maybe it's unreasonable at times, yes, but this just feels so unreasonable and confusing... " }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:03] GG: Joss-k takes what -s approx-mately a s-tt-ng pos-t-on next to h-m. "What's confus-ng you?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:03] GT: { "It's just so give-and-take... I make some happy only to dissapoint others. " }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:03] GT: { "That's how life is, though. Heh. I preach that, in fact." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:04] GG: "Pract-ce what you preach. That's how l-fe -s, so there -s no reason to hate yourself."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:04] GT: { "I know, I know..." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:05] GT: { Kikate buries his face in his mer-tail. }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:05] GT: { "But it just keeps on and on..." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:07] GG: Joss-k puts an arm around h-s shoulder and beg-ns papp-ng h-m. "Shoooooosh, -t's okay."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:08] GG: "Hey, look at -t th-s way."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:09] GG: "No matter how much you hate yourself, there w-ll always be people who care for you even more."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:10] GG: "L-ke Kate, or me."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:12] GT: { Kikate smiles a bit at this, turning his head up a bit. }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:12] GT: { "Thank you..." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:12] GG: "You're welcome."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:14] GT: { "It still hurts... But it's you and the rest of the team that makes me have something to live for, you know?" }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:15] GT: { "Without something to protect I've got nothing... So I'm glad you appreciate me." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:15] GG: "You're fuck-ng welcome."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:16] GG: "Feel-ng any better?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:18] GT: { "Mmm. " Kikate gets up and turns his head around }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:18] GT: { "I'm gonna tell Sotsias what's up." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:33] GG: "-'ll be here -f you need me, alr-ght?"

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:33] GT: { "Of course. Thank you again, friend." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:33] GG: "You're welcome, mo-ra-l."

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:35] GT: { "Until neXt time." }

<p style="margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;">[05:35] -- graciousTerminator [GT] gave up trolling garrisonedGuardian [GG] at 17:35 --